happy independence day!!!!!

to all u nigerians our there:
CONGRATULATIONS!
happy 45 years baby
=)
hope u all wore your green and white and prayed for our dear homeland.

u think uve got it bad....

then u hear something that completely blows ur mind.
my friend from high school had breast cancer.
we're talking 21 year old, healthy, black female, had same teachers as i did, walked same halls as me, thot same guys were cute, had breast cancer.
i heard yesterday and almost passed out. she's fine and recovering great but all the same..... somehow u dont think it would apply. all the breast cancer commercials i know have a caucasian woman who looks like shes in her 50s talking about it. and yes i know that it affects people much younger but c'mon! my friend's barely out her teenage years.
and to think i was complaining about my anatomy class.
next time i complain about my hair with split ends, i'll think of my friend who's bald (and looking fabulous by the way!)
next time i wake up with a cold, i'll remember that one day she woke up and found lumps.
next time i think that my life is crummy, i'll think of my friend and thank God for both our lives.
so if today u start to moan about ur circumstances, think of my friend who survived cancer and know that u can go thru anything.

i aint stressing

i spoke with TA yesterday and we agreed that peace was a great thing to have, a great prayer to continually offer up. and like her, i think the Big Guy Upstairs is listening.
ive got my 2nd block of exams in about a week and half. i dont know what the heck is going on in class. but i aint stressing.
my housing situation was bothering my dad so i had to make some sacrifices that almost made me want to jump off a cliff. but i aint stressing.
im finding it hard to balance my time the way i should, ive got to submit a topic for my research presentation in 2 days, a presentation i dont even know where to start from. but i aint stressing.
all in all, my life doesnt look too good right now.
but Jesus is still alive.
so i aint stressing

be wise!

what exactly does it mean to be wise?
who knows.
i can tell u what it is to not be wise tho. its waiting until the day before uve got a paper due to start writing it. its currently about 5am and im writing a paper on dupuytren's contracture for my clinical human anatomy class thats due by noon. i got the topic last week wednesday, so yes ive had a full week to get it done but of course i didnt. so if i sleep during all my classes today, we'll know why.
its cos im soooooooo not wise.
we've started getting back the results from block 1 exams. keep em fingers crossed people. looks like i might not have to jump off a cliff after all. not really looking forward to class today (random guess: proly cos i havent slept yet). im looking forward to lab tho. dont think ive told u about lab. my group has five members and i think my partners are really cool people. personally, ive never met a more encouraging group. it freaked me out at first cos i wondered if normal people actually congratulated u just cos u made an incision without compromising any superficial blood vessels or nerves. anyhu, we're a great team and we like our body donor. we named him karl. thats karl with a k. so we can call him k. daver.
yeah, in addition to not being wise, we arent funny ;-)
but at least we get the work done (even if its at 5am) and ive been told that thats all that counts.
have a good one people. no sleeping on the job now.

seeing the world thru another's eyes.

yesterday someone called me a "big ol strawberry cheesecake".
highest praise! especially when u consider who it was that said it (he would sell his right arm for strawberry cheesecake). however, i hate cheesecake. so even tho i knew i should be blushing, i just scrunched up my face and said "ure sooooo stoopid"
but it helped me realize what understanding is all about. its about listening to someone not with ur own ears, but with theirs. i talked about how someone annoyed me yesterday. well, it turns out that i wasnt mostly right and he wasnt mostly wrong. ;-) in my defense i must say that i misunderstood what he was trying to express and i really wasnt listening when he was saying "ure not listening to me!" but it was only when i put myself in his shoes that i saw that what i was blaming him for wasnt something that could have been helped. *enter feelings of guilt and shame* fortunately, he was a whole lot more understanding than i was when i went to apologize. but i digress.
what i got out of that whole strawberry cheesecake thing and my fight yesterday was that we all need to look at things thru other people's perspectives. and yes, even tho the world does revolve around me, im not always right (insert genuine shock). so before i make conclusions about someone or something, i need to first walk a mile in shoes that arent mine.
or at least a couple feet.
=)

what can i say?

its been a while eh? tell me bout it.
im currently really upset with someone so this is proly not the time to write. its also funny cos said person has been saying for the past 6 weeks "OG ure always happy and cheerful and stuff. i wanna see u when ure angry". oh well, i guess hes seeing it now. and hed better be freakin grateful that he can still see cos Lord knows i wanna claw his eyes out.
so what have i been doing? who really knows. i started school on the 15th of august. absolutely loved it! i was on a roll. i knew what was going on in class. i was feeling good bout myself. and i studied! like ive never done before. and still loved every second of it (i know im crazy)
then i started to slack off at the start of the 3rd week of classes.
bad move.
especially since i had my first block of exams the week after that. (who the heck has exams after just 3 weeks of classes?) im yet to check my scores but considering what ive heard from the people who actually checked, it aint looking good people.
anyhu, its a new week. im studying the way i used to. by the time block two comes in 4 weeks, imma be ready.
but all thats the boring stuff. what else is going on in my life is what i should really be saying. i got an apartment! its a 2 bedroom and gorgeous. and by the time i get a roomie itll be cheaper than the room im renting now. and u guys know i wanted to move out by sept 1st right? well, my landlady said that cos i didnt give her up to a month's notice, i would still have to pay for the entire freakin month whether i lived there or not. and since im not one to throw money to the wind, im still at her house. but ive signed my lease for my new place and will start moving my stuff in by next week. and for the record, my new landlord, is great! i couldnt have prayed for anyone better.
was in chicago for the weekend. as always, its was fabulous seeing TA and TO again. i really miss when we would all hang out in undergrad. now we've all moved on to far flung places to pursue our dreams. so sad.
in other news, my brother is here! yep, my baby has started school over at howard university in dc. and yes, he likes it. in addition, my dad is in the country. hes in delaware now with my big bro. i'll be seeing him on the 24th when he comes over to wisconsin. im really excited about showing him the place i now call home.
what else? church is great. i really really love my church. and my pastor and i are mad cool. today after service when i went to say goodbye, he took one look at me, saw all was not well, gave me a hug and said "OG u know ure my daughter, call me if u need to talk." thats all he needed to do. right there and then i knew what i had to do. so right after that i went to pour fire on someone's head.
just kiddin.
i didnt pour fire. i simply ignored him for a couple hours. then very calmly expressed my intense disappointment. unfortunately, he doesnt get it. yes, thats what i said, he doesnt freakin get it. he thinks it was no big deal and wonders why im stressing. at that point in time, i wanted to say "who are u and what exactly am i doing with u again?" so instead i smiled and said:
"are u ok?"
"me? this aint about me. are u okay?"
"yes i am. now answer my question"
"im fine!"
"congratulations."
*i get out of the car and walk away without looking back*
so yeah, its been an iffy day. im currently in the library trying to study the cranial nerves. my mind is sooooooooo not here tho.
oh well, lets all grab martinis and toast to better days. cheers!

just tired

i dunno whats goig on with my bodee but im just so incredibly tired. and its not like i did anything today. well i hung out with PN and KA. and PN cooked for me. did i tell u guys hes cooked for me everyday this week? i didnt? oh. my bad. i realized that today and figured that i proly need to spend a bit more time in my own house, eating my own food. its just that when he takes me home i feel sad. and his mom is always inviting me to stay over (?????????????) cos she says he takes me home late and i should spend the night instead. of course im there thinking 'erm, it aint that late, and Jesus will shoot me'. anyhu shes really cool. i like her. i mean her son cooks and cleans, shes gotta have done somin right.
ive got my white coat ceremony tomorrow. i shall be officially inducted into the noble profession that is medicine. then its off to PN's sister's birthday party. should be fun. lets just hope im no longer this tired.